I'd rather just be alone, if I know that I can't have you.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO on tuesday Jonas released a new cd titled A Little Bit Longer.

It's pretty much my newest obsession.

I love it when they release new cds, cause for roughly a week, all the fans actually care about their music, instead of just obsessing over their looks. :p

anyways,

I don't have a favorite track, but I do like some more than others.

it's half their fault for that though, because they released four songs earlier on iTunes.

mmmmm, LoveBug, Can't Have You, Sorry, One Man Show, Video Girl, BB Good, Got Me Going Crazy, Shelf, and Tonight i prefer above the rest.

Burnin' Up, is becoming overplayed, which I hate.

Pushin' Me Away, I've heard since Look Me In The Eyes tour, so it's just kinda old.

A Little Bit Longer, sucks. honestly, they killed it with the drums. 

Happy Anniversary to Mr. Jonas & Mrs. Jonas. A very happy 21 years <3.

oh, and it's some kid named joseph adam jonas's birthday today too.

ehhh whatever he shouldn't be allowed to turn nineteen.

that's just gross.

I'll do whatever It takes, to turn this around..

I can not believe, that it has been 1 entire year since.



The scariest day of my life.






Joseph, you have no clue how thankful I am that you did this.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you SO SO SO SO MUCH.


I still shudder to watch this. I still can not believe it.

Singing We Were Dreamers, Every Single Day...

steveee. me and kel. <3
me and aaron <33333333!
billy, me, steve, kelly (: i love us <3.
me and kel before the acoustic show.


steve wanted my autograph (; <3


acoustic show!
i LOVEEEEEEEEE aaron! <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1kwkOlnIfu8MxJHBraxVowLzPWdBtlVzprTZhmmKii-R5fsZ0CT3jHG7dGorS7ZJO_SOXT26SgFoE45k0zywdiOemA7R1bkiErYDRPYlGMmsEMJtCm4wxvverMi8ymCANfnwJQKaSB_Fp/s1600-h/08-05-08_2002.jpg">hahah i walk around the crowd during concerts.. :P
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billy is sooo cool (:
HAHAH BILLY'S FACE!!!!!!! (:



August 4 - Push Play's acoustic show.

It was pretty bomb. there was about 50 people? roughly. possibly a dozen more or so.
it was at Rockabilly's, which is a record store, that is freaking SMALL! :P
concert was incredible. i loved their set. it was small :/.
but it was good! I 'talked' to CJ while he was onstage a few times.
i made a comment about them HAVING to play dreamers.
and he told a story about how he had to burp and i was like "you'd say excuse me right?" and he said "I would say excuse me." (then he did during the next song ;))
& i had the idea that cause people in the back couldn't see, we should sit down. i tried first and about 10 or so people agreed with me. then the guy who owned the play told everyone to sit, and it worked. Cj said "i love how everyone's sitting on the ground" and i'm like "KINDGARTEN STYLE!!" ;)
hahah. it was sweet. i took a video

it's of away away!
i LOVEE that song! <3.
mmmmm, then there was a meet and greet, butttt me and kelly, met this other cool band (well 3/5th's of it) called What Happened In Vegas. We met Ron, Billy, and Steve. (:
they were SOOOO sweet! we mostly were with Billy and Steve cause Ron when to go get merch or something? :P hahaa!

and then we met Push Play. Derek & CJ remembered me from New York from August 6th/8th, 2007! it was pretty cool (: and made me happy.
we took a few photos (correction, my friends did, i don't have them yet :P)
& yea it was cool. i showed them their comment to me from over a year ago saying they would come to michigan, and they thought it was pretty awesome. and I gave CJ a kiss on the cheek cause he's TOOO CUTE <333. :)

uhhh, we hung out with Billy & Steve for a while more, then we had to go cause my dad was gunna be there soon.

August 5th, 2008 -

So me and kel were freaking out cause we needed a ride for today. butttt my dad being the awesome guy he is got off work early and got us there at six (when the doors opened.) we had to still buy tickets (which were 10 dollars each at the door) and out of the blue this woman came over to us and was like do you need tickets? and we're like YES! so we got TWO tickets for 10 dollars. (: hah. it was insane when we got inside. there was prolly about 200 or more people there. and then we went into a small room, then switched into a bigger room. we choose the side of the venue causeeee there was like 2 rows as opposed to the middle there was like 10. the lead singer of what happened in vegas came out and met a few people before the show, and he pointed to me and was like "I like your shirt!" (i was wearing a whiv shirt i bought the day prior.) haha, so we talked to him for a bit, and i was like, YOU BETTER COME OVER TO THIS SIDE (: and he's like, just scream and i will. soooo then firstttt What Happened In Vegas came out. They were incredible! it was my first time hearing them really, and they did so well. I was on Billy's side. :) mmm, they just did great! as promised Aaron came over to our side a lot and he held my hand a lot and i touched his hair during the concert and yea it was awesome <3. hahaha! after they were done kelly didn't want to stand for Push Play. Neither did I but I really like push play. after forever they came out and i went back to where i was but there were a bunch of people :/ soooo i kinda had lost my place. ehh that sucked. but the concert was pretty awesome. it was really loud too. the speakers were really really like loud. hah. it was fun though. after the concert i found kel, and we hung with what happened in vegas. they are SOOOO sweet! i love them. i took a bunch of pictures with them (again on other people's cameras.) and it was just chill as heck. i called mariah to talk to all of the band. thennn i went to go to the push play meet and greet. kelly called me while i was meeting them so i hardly talked to them, but i got another photo (on my dispoable camera.) so i don't have it yet. :P hah.
and yea it was pretty awesome. i loved itttt!

uh wow..

IT'S ALREADY AUGUST?!

where is the time going.

uh, i need a better schdule.

aug 1(today) 7:55PM new Livin The Dream EP.
aug 1(today) 10 PM Jonas on 20/20.
aug 2 8PM DC Games
aug 2 12AM Breaking Dawn Releases
aug 3 8PM Studio DC Almost Live (jonas?)
aug 4 2PM Push Play Acoustic concert.
aug 46PM Dance Class
aug 4 8PM Teen Choice Awards
aug 5 12AM A Little Bit Longer (song) releases on iTunes.
aug 5 7PM Push Play concert(maybe)
aug 8 7AM Jonas Brothers on Good Morning America.
aug 8 7:55PM Livin The Dream EP.
aug 9 8PM DC Games
aug 12 12AM Jonas Brothers A Little Bit Longer CD releases.
aug 15 12AM Joseph's birthday.
aug 15 7:55PM Livin The Dream EP.
aug 16 8PM DC Games


kfdhjsakfkjsdahkfj;sdkl gah I'm already stressed.

this month is SOOOO freaking busy.

add reading to the list and I have like zero free time once again.


blahhhhhhhhhh.
help me. :[

elles.

They say it's your birthday.

well Happy Birthday to me. :P

and Selena, and Taylor, and Lauren, and Joe, and like 50 trillion other people out there.

yea.

this birthday's been sorta boring.

I had Summer Music Theatre this morning.

& I have it again from 5 til 9:30.

sooooooooooooooo yea.

I only had a 'family' party.

fun. fun. fun.

I got clothes.
and a jonas brothers burnin up tour shirt (i wanted one).
and reese's peanut butter cups (YUM!)
and a magazine(bop! mag)
and New Moon.
and i bought myself (you're aloud to do that if you don't get what you want right?)
Miley's CD Breakout and camp rock single We Rock CD.

yep.

it's been very low-key.

♥

End.
Laura Jean

Julyy.

Oh how the time does fly.

this month has already been crazy.

June 31st Mariah, my like best friend from ohio, came over and we had a lot of fun. (:

and then on July 4th, my family, and mariah packed our bags and went on a trip to Wisconsin.

July 6th, it was insane.

Mariah and I woke up at 5 to the sounds of her phone going off. It was Katie, texting her telling her that she knew where Jonas Brothers were staying (what hotel.) so they came to our hotel, took showers, (Katie and Caroline) and then we headed out to their hotel. (name withheld.)

we just kinda chilled outside and were singing and dancing and around 8 AM a car that looked RELALY familiar drove up. I swore it was jonas's but I wasn't sure. and the fact that an old man came out of it didn't help. 8 - 8:30ish people were loading up the back of the car with golf clubs and shoes, etc. at first we thought it was a cello case, but then we were positive it was golifing clubs. at about 8:45 we started singing "Burning Up" by Jonas Brothers. Litterally moments after we started, Nick and Joe walked out of the hotel. 

at first we couldn't tell it was them. It just looked like two guys in shorts. then Joe waved to us, and their people waved us over. 

We came over and talked to nick and joe a bit. Joe had such a speech impediment. it was adorable. (;Nick looked deathly tired, but he said he was fine. Kevin was still sleeping, and as we had guessed it the boys were going golfing. It was great seeing them again. but it felt weird. like, they just were so so normal. 

hahah joe is such a creeper in the bottom one xP.

but it was chill. then they went golfing. we just kinda stayed at the hotel cause we wanted to see kevin. aroud 12 Nick and Joe arrived back at the hotel from golfing. Nick waved over to us, and I motioned him over to us. He gave me a look of "oh i want to :/" but there were about six girls behind him trying to get him to notice them, so him being the gentleman he is, turned around and let them talk to him. Joe on the otherhand motioned us over and talked to us for a bit. then one of their people told them they had to go inside. Nick gave me a look of  'sorry I didn't get to talk to you this time.' and half protested going inside, but their people made them. we continued waiting, cause we really wanted to see kevin (Caroline, Katie, and Mariah had never met Jonas ever before this day.) around 1 O'clock two tour buses showed up in front of the hotel. stuff was getting put into it, and stuff was getting taken out of other things. 

Big Rob's microphone stuff. (:

Kevin's stuff (:

a ton of people started showing up, and around 1:45 there was roughly 30 people there, most wearing CAMP ROCK shirts, with Demi & Shane on them. there were also several mom's there that had their camera phones ready to take photos. it was sicking, because at 8:45/9 AM it was just Nick, Joe, Mariah, Caroline, Katie, and Me, & now there was a TON of people. at about 2 O'clock Kevin, Nick, and Joe finally emerged from the hotel (this was the only time that Big Rob was with them.) with Big Rob behind their trail. all the girls started screaming, it was really annoying, but I started yelling "KEVIN! KEVIN! KEVIN JONAS! KEVIN!" and he came over to where I was. He was like "yea?" and I told him that me and my friends had been there since early this morning and that we've already met his brothers but my friend mariah has been a fan forever and really just wants a hug. and he gave me this look. he just looked deeply in my eyes and understood (: hahah, and he gave mariah the biggest hug, ever. people continually screamed and then they all finally made it onto their bus where everyone screamed LOUDER. and mariah almost passed out, (she had been crying almost every time we met them and was like crying the hardest when kevin came out.) and it was just chaos. but mariah basically fell to the ground. and people around didn't even care. I was getting really fustraded with everyone screaming. and I saw the boys looking out their window at mariah. it was intense. I finally helped her up, and we left. but I found it funny that their buses didn't leave until mariah was ohkay again. (;  fastforward through lunch, we got to summerfest there were a ton of people there, 26 thousand to be exact, for the jonas brothers concert. we had lawn seats. they sucked ass cause you couldn't see a thing, but the concert itself was incredible. and i'll never forget the moment of A Little Bit Longer when Nicholas said to sing along, and all I could hear in the ampitheatre was Nicholas, Mariah, and Me. it was just, incredible. 

 yea, that's the only photo I took all night, sad huh? (;

I took like four videos, but they're all like 20 seconds long at most.

www.youtube.com/ljjbxhellobeautiful if you wanna watch 'em (;

my phone died during the fourth song.

It was fab though.

if your going, you'll LOVE it!

I'll post another blog later about July 11th, cause I have dance in a little under an hour, and I still have to eat dinner. (:

July 22nd is my birthday, don't forget.

who's getting me a present? (:

Till then, ♥

Laura Jean <3.

I'll be your footprints in the sand..

before i do anything, check out ryan narciso -- www.myspace.com/ryannarciso

he's amazing. i think i've posted about him before.

he's got a new song out! :]

mmmmm.

NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!

thank you lord.

i think i'm going to the carnival about a mile from my house tomorrow.

but i semi dont wanna. i dunno. it's not there for me.

i've been in kind of a semi-emo-istic mood today.

it's not the weather, it's beautiful out today.

Yesterday it rained. and I was going to play ultimate with the guys, but cause of the rain they canceled. So I had to walk home in the rain, like three miles. and I was lost the entire time.

and I was SOAKING wet when I got home. =/

I have somewhat of a head-jumble.

I'm not sure exactly what I want. 

I'm having second, and third thoughts.

Nothing really going the way I want.

I'm loosing meaning to my dreams.

They're really confusing, when usually I can pick them out.

I want to just stay under the covers and hide.

I had a test and a quiz today.

I was suppose to have two quizes, but my science teacher let us off the hook.

my history test, I think I bombed. I'll be happy if I got a D-.

my english quiz was easy. I'm actually on track with the book we're reading, To Kill A Mockingbird.

It's somewhat confusing. but I don't like spark notes. I rather read it, honestly. 

I want to write a song, but everything I seem to write has to do about love or men.

and I don't want to write about that.

I feel like I'm loosing some people. I don't know who they are anymore.

They don't know who I am. And yet, I miss them.

Mary's going to Canada today.

she'll be there for a week.

I've been really busy lately, but this week was so low key, and I had nothing.

I miss play rehersals. I liked not being home till 10 PM. It was extremely enjoyable,

because I was around people.

I find Myspace and Facebook unappealing these days.

It's extremely unlike me. 

 I'm torn, like a ripped picture.

Guys like to PMS and confuse me.

It's really hard to figure them out.

Nick can't dance.

I really want a sidekick phone.

nobody has a Razr these days.  =O

I need to stop biting my nails. they're to short. 

I'm breaking my code of outfits, and I've been wearing baggy pants and shorts.

It's unlike me completely, I feel so odd if I don't wear jeans usually.

I feel ugly. 

and that I'm hiding underneath make up.

yet it doesn't cover ANYTHING that matters.

Junior guys are complete flirts.

I'm starting to have friends at my school.

there is a little under a month left.

I'm beginning to notice most the people I text

DO go to my school these days.

I wish I had a time machine so I could undo somethings I've done wrong in the past.

but then again people always tell me, "Everything Happens For A Reason."

whether I like it or not.

I don't like michigan. 

It always rains on the WORST days.

I feel so alone,  yet I'm gaining a bunch of friends.

Every other sentence I say to my parents seems to be talking

of some new friend from school.

The other day I had a dream. I was walking to school. When I got there I was at my old middle school. I saw all my friends from my old school, that I probably haven't talked to in months. It was two of my friends birthdays on the same day, when in reality their birthdays are on opposite ends of the calendar. I saw the first person I met at my new school. she was telling me something about some bus if you added A's to the title on it it would spell some word. I tried calling my dad to tell him to come pick me up. but his number was backwards every time I typed it. I finally wrote "Mary Ellen" as if the letters were numbers and it went through to call my dad. The second it went through I turned around and saw the our Minivan and the antenna box. I got in the car and my dad said "What are you doing here?" I told him "I don't know." and I woke up.

I've written two songs this month.

Falling (in love), and Lover/Love Her.

Mary helped with Lover/Love Her.

I want to write a book. But I don't know where I'd start.

My life is like a puzzle, I don't know how to put back the pieces.

Elles.