my heart has been hurt alot....

ohmygod.

i've been so emo. its bad. its real bad. i keep crying. over stupid things. but things i need. people i need. not want, but need. I'm legit going insane. and the stupid situation with my glasses is not helping me one bit. this stupid place where my glasses are coming in from have taken like three extra weeks then they orginially said. they first screwed up the lenses, and now they're just not in yet. i'm getting so fustraded. i can't see. i'm so blinded. i'm so hurt. my heart just aches. legit it aches. i can't stand when people are talking about love. i can't stand it when people tell me about how good their relationship with their boyfriend is going. i swear everyone's in love but me. i am so alone. no one actually sees whats going on with me. no one even cares. i've tried talking. it doesn't help. crying isn't solving any problems. i need someone. i need love. i need hugs. i need happiness. i'm so so lonely.


god i'm depressing.


in happier news, what i need is coming up.
Y.O.U Fall Rally is coming up. October 17th CAN NOT come soon enough.

i'm legit counting down the days...

19 more days. pray i can make it that much longer.
Elle.

It's just another day...

but this weekend wasn't.

i went to two concerts in three days.

pretty fun.

Friday -- What Happened In Vegas. it was at this bar in Mt. Clemens. it was pretty fun actually. The boys were suppose to go on at like eight, but they didn't get on till like ten. hah. and I met up with them all and talked for a while and stuff, so that was nice. there were a few other bands there too, I've checked them out, I like a few, yea. the concert was just great. (: hahhaa i have a couple photos of aaron looking right at me and then this one of his hair.... he was too close to the lense I guess? hah. And I asked Billy for a guitar pick, and he gave me one. so that was fun. hah. yes, it was a fantastical show. I got home about 12: something AM and got like no sleep. haha.


Saturday -- 8 AM wake up. I baby sat one of my madres' daycare children. it was 'fun.' 10 hours of babysitting = 70 dollars pay, so that was nice. I was worn out after that. Finished around 6 PM. yea. just dandy.


Sunday --- Kate Voelege, Lesley Roy, Virginia Coalition. I met Lesley and VC. and technecially Kate because she was leaving this building and I was like HEY KATE and I was with Emily, Sam, and Olivia, and she was like Hey guys. so that was cool. haha, during Lesley's set, her last song was "I'm gone, I'm going." and that premiered on FN MTV the same night that Jonas Brothers were on it, so I rememered hearing it and liking it, so I screamed, I LOVE THAT SONG! and she was happy about that. it was cool. and we didn't really watch VC cause they kinda scared us (me and sam, emily and olivia left after lesley.) and then Kate was awesome, but there was the majorly tall dad in front of us, and he pissed me off cause he wouldn't move and i couldn't see that well cause of him. haha it was funny for Kate cause after every song I would scream something like "I LOVE YOU" or "YOUR AMAZING." and she loved it. and this one time i screamed "CAN I HAVE A GUITAR PICK?!" and she's like "something about a carpet?" and I'm like "GU-iTAR PICK" haha, and she's like "oh see that could have been three things, Carpet, Arm Pit, or Guitar Pick. " then she came over to me and handed me one. hahah it was pretty sweet, and Sam was pretty jealous. haha, sorry sammy. ;)


yea, goooodddd weekend.

oooh, and I bought my ticket for Push Play/What Happened in Vegas on Halloween.
so i'm pretty excited for that, and Oct 30th, Push Play. (:

<333 concerts are my best friend, for reals.


Laura Jean.

Don't take this personal...

uhm, I officially can't stand being sick. It's gross.
I like died in school today. literally, ew.

My bus driver NEVER came. the middle school bus driver picked up me and the rest of my route.

there was about 90 people on one bus. it was mildly dangerous. :p

Today I was like freaking out.
I thought I was going insane, cause I saw like 20 girls with Jonas Tee Shirts on and I'm like what the fuck am I forgetting some Jonas-Related holiday today?

hah. wow I'm an Idiot.
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I hope Nick Jonas Is having a better day than I am.

oh, by the way, it's His birthday today. :p

coooooooool. hope he's doing fine, and having fun with
his lil' doggie. (:

first day...

today was the first day of being a sophomore at high school.

i woke up at about 6:18.

got finished getting ready at 6:30, ate breakfast, then I went to the door and see my bus, I grab my backpack but I left my hoodie on the chair, and by the time I get out the door my bus has already left. 

my mom drove me. 

Homeroom was good, same people as last year, 'cause of course we all have the same last names as last year. 

1st hour is english. It's the same english teacher that I had last year, and she's pregnant so I'm not expecting to have her all semester. And I deff have no friends in that class.

2nd hour is choir. It's.. blah. I'm a 2nd alto apparently? not really. :p

3rd hour is history, going to be a BLAST. I have audrey in my class so should be good.

4th hour is biolegy. and i can't spell. :p haha, brenda's in that class soooo will be awesome.

5th hour is french. hahha, i'm like the only one in the class that can half understand what she's saying.

6th hour is geometry. seems like it's going to be a lot of work.

I have third lunch tomorrow, which is at like 12 AM. :p that's gunna suck.

it was a half day, so no homework, but i have a test tomorrow in geometry (like i said, a lot of work.) 

I got on the bus, and got to the last stop and found out I was on the wrong bus. so I had to walk like half a mile home. 

yep, pretty sucky first day. :/

not looking forward to this year, at all.

Elles.