Been so busy.
basically, I just need a place to make a list. I just need a plan.
1. Money. I hate saying this. I'm never one to be like that, but I really need it right now. I want to have enough that I'm not freaking out over 'can i get this? what will i have to give up for this?' :/ it's hard. I need a job, or I need my shows to start really paying:(.
2. Jump Starting. I need my takeoff. I need my musician-ness to take off. or go to the next level. I need to get a real plan, instead of winging it and just going along for the ride. This is getting to be just too much.
3. Minnesota. I've been telling my friends I'm gunna see them for too long. I really just need to get my ass out there. Even if it's just a week. It's gotta happen THIS summer.
4. a Job. I really don't want to do this. But if the whole show thing isn't paying it, I need a second source of income. I hate asking parents for cash. I need my own way.
5. Y.O.U. I really want to be regional for '11. That means I need to start working towards this goal NOW. I need to live in the now. I need to also plan for the future. I need to work on my spirituality, and my beliefs. I need to work on my meditative side.
Thank god it's the summer and I don't have to worry about school for another few months. This next year will be the hardest school year ever, Junior year. No more underclassmen. Upperclass, harder work. No slacking off. I gotta get my GPA up. Even if I'm not planning on college, I have to know my options so I don't live in a cardboard box for my life. I need a plan. I need a route. I need a road.
6. I NEED TO START DRIVERS TRAINING. Self explainatory. :O
-lj
xx.
